Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Finding Rest in a Restless Place

Ahhhh!! I can’t sleep. I feel so restless.  I’ve actually been feeling restless a lot lately.  I used to write in here when I couldn’t sleep at night so I’m giving it a shot.  Here’s to hoping not to fall asleep midsentence or maybe that is what I’m hoping for? I don’t know.   It seems like I don’t know a lot these days.  I don’t know what I want to wear, eat, go or how to spend my time.  I’m just plain restless, but why?

20 minutes later
I’m starting to feel the stress of the semester, so bad that I had a nightmare the other night about being scolded by a professor for not staying on top of my work. It’s ok to laugh haha its ridiculous I know. Not only am I questioning my decisions on time management but I’m questioning them in other areas of my life as well.  They haven’t been the wisest lately…. I don’t feel like I’m in the right place right now and I’m not talking about a physical place.  I don’t feel like I’m in the same place with God as I was lets just say last April to pick a time period.  Being human, I’m prone to wander and I’m afraid I’ve done just that.  No wonder I feel so restless! 

I think back to last spring and remember how at peace and lighter I felt. I want that again…now if only I could get there. I know I can..I just have to find rest.  Rest in the Lord.

So how do I rest in Him?  Well after thinking about it I think my way of resting in Him is to study His word and occasionally expressing my thoughts here or to a close friend.  In church this past week the pastor talked about finding a quiet or secret place to spend time in prayer with God.  This is something I think I could benefit from.  Just this quiet time I’ve had this evening has been nice.  No distractions just silence with the exception of the washing machine in the background but I can ignore that.  I feel slightly better already, oh the power of prayer. 

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.   Matthew 11:28-29

Tonight I’m praying not to waver from God’s promises and to find rest in Him.  

Your prayers are also appreciated :)



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